The changes I have spent the last 8 months working on, haven’t been purely physical. It has been a mental battle too, beyond just the” I want cake you can’t have cake but I want cake you can’t have cake” type. I’ve had to focus really hard on changing my train of thought from a negative one to a positive one. An I CAN do that attitude. Sunday, the more weight I stacked on the bar for my calf extensions, this stupid voice kept trying to creep into my head, if you include the bar, I was moving over double my body weight, saying there is no way you are going to even get your feet off the ground to move it off the rack. Then the other little voice in my head was like yeah well you can shut up now. I really had to stomp down the naysayer in my head and focus. Focus on the fact that I CAN do it and was going to do it. Focus on the right places to hold my tension, and when to breathe.
It’s when you let that little voice, whether it’s yours, or someone else’s, get into your head that you start to self doubt. I believe it was Arnold Schwarzenegger that said (paraphrasing) your mind will quit before your body is ready, and I have found that to be so true. Can you really not do 15 minutes cardio, or do you not want to. Can you physically not lift up one more rep, or are you just tired and want to quit?
Cardio is probably my least favorite thing to do ever. I think after I lifted today I screwed around in the locker room for 10 or 15 minutes avoiding it. My torture device of the day was the elliptical. When I first started working out a year ago, I was doing only cardio (and I remember it was a year ago because I was going trough a break up and i decided to get hot and show him.. Yeah that lasted about 3 weeks before I gave up). I would do about and hour to an hour and a half of cardio 3-4 times a week. I would do 30 on the treadmill, 5 on the elliptical because I was convinced I was dying, 10-20 on the arc trainer half way trying compared to what I do now, and then I would park my butt on that dumb bicycle I hate and suffer for 30 minutes. Yeah 5 minutes on the elliptical. One. Two. Three. Four. Five. Looking back could I have done more? Heck yes, but I had convinced myself that I couldn’t. I’ll be honest, today after 15 minutes I wanted to quit, but at 15 I talked myself into 5 more, then at 20 I was like well I’ll quit at 25, 25 came around and mentally this little voice was like if you quit now the only person you are cheating is yourself. So true. I pushed out the last 5 minutes and was able to stop without feeling any regret or like I could have done better. That satisfaction is the absolute best feeling in the world.
In other news. I happened across a boy and “training” his girlfriend at the gym today. I use training loosely… He was in sandals and khakis… And when she picked up 10 pound weights to do curls with he told her to go use the 5 pound ones so she didn’t get “big”. I wouldn’t have paid them ANY attention had they not set up so close to my bench that I couldn’t even use both sides of it for the dumbbell rows I was doing. Then they went over to the cables and did i don’t know what, I did notice them on the smith machine bench pressing and he wouldn’t let her add any weight to the bars. Some people have absolutely no business “helping”.
A few from today
The pink and pink is may and today
The purple and pink was last week and today. Lots of week to week pictures will be coming over the next 11 weeks lol