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I’m obviously feeling extra witty today. I’ve just been my own worst enemy lately. Not really certain what’s up, but I’ve just been in this stubborn funk and want to sit here and eat carbs and Halloween candy. The problem isn’t so much that I want to eat one piece of the candy, the problem is I want to eat the whole bag of given the chance. I haven’t gained any weight which is fine, but I have clearly plateaued and probably eating close to maintenance calories which isn’t bad, but it isn’t going to achieve what I want. It also makes me grumpy and sluggish when I eat too much junk. I think some of it is I have been pushing so hard for 10 months now? And super hard for 6 months? I think my brain just hit the point of needing a break. I’m making a conscious effort to get my train back on the tracks. If I don’t buy it, I don’t eat it, so I just need to stop making excuses to buy it and my kids are going to have to suck it up too.

I’m slowly recovering from my fall last week at the gym. I tweaked my back up bad and I’ve been in a pissy mood. I’m 99% sure it’s just in the muscles and have been using a heat wrap at night and in the morning to loosen the muscles and it is greatly helping. I also scraped my knee up and today is the first day it is able to move freely without pulling at the scab. Tried to do some legs today and it just wasn’t ready… Hoping next week I will be good to go. I also need to hop back on the cardio train.

Training wise everything else has been awesome. I’m up to two good solid, controlled sets of chest presses with the 40lb dumb bells. I can get the up on my own now and get them down without bruising the crap out of my legs. My guy went with me last week and spotted me and this week something just clicked and it was second nature and no struggle.

I have a guy I am seriously seeing now. You could probably safely call him my boyfriend, he does. Total sweetheart, I really like him and he slid into my life effortlessly. He isn’t a gym rat, but he knows his way around the gym and likes to go with me when he can. He is totally cool with me showing him up. I guarantee on biceps he would beat me, but shoulders/chest/calves he has accepted that I train them harder I think. He jokes that before me he only used to train biceps. I don’t care either way, he can train however he wants, we have different goals and needs so we don’t have to train the same ways.

I had some importantish blood work done week before last which has also had me kind of stressed out. The results FINALLY came back today and it was all negative, so I can breathe easier again. I do need to schedule a general physical but I’m happy I had the blood work done. I had put it off way way too long.

June to now. My shoulders are at least 2 inches bigger around and my forearms have made some gains too







Tonight I need to sit down and clearly write out my expectations and goals for myself… I’m having a hard time sticking to a diet plan/meal plan that I know works for me because I’ve been just bla, and there is very easy access to junk food constantly at work. I know how to do it. I have done it. I can do it. I’m just in a funk. I’ve set a goal to compete sometime around July of next year… Narrowing it down to a specific show is what I’m currently working on.

I’m also trying to learn to balance work, gym, and a relationship. It makes me nervous, but in at a point where I need closeness and companionship right now, and he has fit into my life seamlessly, enjoys going to the gym with me as well. So we will see =)

I did a stupid…

I went and got a great chest and tricep workout with the guy I’m dating two days ago? Was able to get the 40s up for two good sets of dumbbell benches, with help getting them into place so I didn’t kill myself, managed to not cause any new bruises this week on that exercise. Moved to the smith to do some flat bench presses on it. Knocked those out, had a few minutes decided for the heck of it I wanted to show him my calf extension. Loaded the bar up to 330 which I have done several times before with absolutely no problem… I don’t know if I have mentioned this before, but I go to planet fitness. Home of the lunk alarm. If you don’t know what it is, it is worth s Google or youtube search…

Now here is what I know. I KNOW that my foot position was off by about half an inch, and any guy will tell you a half of an inch matters, even if they don’t lift. What I don’t know is if my back was just tired, or if it was too weak, or over worked, but I got it up off the smith, got one rep, got two reps, I normally can do 12-15 reps at 330, but on the third rep, something happened and down I went with 330lbs. I was laughing. Everyone in the place saw it happen, everyone in the place heard it happen. The staff set off the lunk alarm… Twice, just in case anyone missed it. I had a couple of people come up to me to make sure I was ok, my guy wasn’t really sure what to think after making sure I was ok. We laughed about it pretty good.

I was kinda sore immediately after, nothing major, woke up feeling like I was hit by a car. My knee is scraped to hell, my arms and knees are bruised up, and my back is very sore but no point tenderness or swelling. Woke up this morning with my knee slightly puffy and pretty bruised. I landed on it funny when I fell. Fortunately I didn’t fight it when I started to fall and just went with it. Took a rest day yesterday. Totally skipped leg day this week. There is not a single chance I can work my quad on the leg I hurt or do anything that moves that knee. I am really hoping the extra bruising this morning drained down from the sore quad and isn’t coming from my knee. I did get back in the gym this morning and trained shoulders and traps with a smidge of lat work. I got back on the smith and worked my calves up to a 90lb extension just to get back on the proverbial horse instead of running scared from it. I definitely set the safety higher and will continue to as I slowly work my weight back up on those, but I’ll be taking it easy for awhile. I do not want a repeat performance.