Big decisions

I’ve made the decision to skip wrestlemania this year. Even changed my time off request. I’m going to try to go to the Arnold instead. It’s closer. It also is more affordable. Depending on work and army, my boyfriend may come as well. If not I’m fine going alone. I actually really enjoy traveling alone. Also in the plans is I want to attend a warehouse gym training camp…. Just waiting on a release date for new tickets and dates for the camps.

December update

I’ve picked two shows, but I need to get the exact dates for them. The first one I below is in June, and the second will be in August. I’m still wiffle waffling between whether to compete in bikini or figure. I’ve made a lot more progress over the last 14 weeks than I had noticed.

I just don’t see me leaning out like a bikini girl. I see figure. I still have a ways to go but I am getting there.
I had an amazing leg workout day before yesterday..





Then I did back and biceps yesterday… I’ve been in the gym 12 of the last 14 days. Today is a rest day.
I’m starting to get back up above body weight on some of my exercises finally. I pulled a 140lb dead lift for 4 reps for the first time too.





So I have my boyfriends military ball coming up in oh a week… And I decided to put off dress shopping oh until today… Which was better than my original plan of next Tuesday. I was also on a super tight budget of keeping it under $50 which for a super formal event is laughable. Then I ran into the problem of a. I’m between sizes. B. My upper back is so developed from lifting it needs 1 size
Larger than my waist. C. My shoulders are so developed, it needs 2 sizes larger than my waist… Oh and I’m only 5’1″. The struggle it’s real. So I narrowed it down to two dresses…
One that was supposed to be totally fitted, but was loose around the middle but mostly for across the back enough that I was fairly confident it wouldn’t fall down but I would probably have to try to take it in some myself.
Or a dress that was very snug but has no other issues, but now that I think about it, sitting may not be an option…
So yeah we are stepping up the cardio and cutting out all the carbs for the next 7 days…
The crazy thing is these dresses are smaller than the one I wore to my junior prom (I think the same size as my sophomore valentines dance dress) and waaaaaaaay smaller than the dress I got married in





Some work out pics










I was having one of those mornings where I didn’t really want to get dressed and go to the gym. I’ve felt slightly frustrated lately because as I get closer to my ultimate goal, the weight is definitely more stubborn and harder to lose. I hadn’t worn this tank in months because the kids had shoved it somewhere and I found it while gathering laundry this week, and I got a great reminded of why I should look at the big picture instead of just the week to week. Just because the scale isn’t moving fast, doesn’t mean progress isn’t being made. Over all it turned into a great gym day =)




A thousand words…

To go with the picture…
Ok well maybe not a thousand words, but I’m not going to count to see. The photobomber would be my boyfriend. We were wrapping up a bicep workout and while he was was doing his last set I was off to the side taking selfies and he noticed and decided to jump in. He has mastered my faces and poses since day 1. We always have a good time and we workout well together…. He lets me lead the workout and is completely cool with me being able to outlift on a few things.

The true guy stuff I don’t stand a chance, but the more fine tuned endurance stuff… He attempted the lat raise pyramid I do for my shoulders and back (15 reps at 10lbs 10 reps at 15 lbs 5 reps and 20lbs 10 reps at 15lbs and 15 reps at 10lbs only stopping long enough to switch dumbbells)…. He tried…. Hard. For me, that’s not so much about being able to lift that weight, as building up to being able to do that many continuous reps. I love the burn and the pump I get from that. Throw in a play raise drop set immediately after that and your shoulders will be annihilated.

He has invited me to his Lt.s Halloween party this month. I’m clueless on costumes… I haven’t dressed up in 13 years? He’s going as Clark Kent and suggested I go as Lois? I don’t know? I don’t even know where to start for that one. I’m excited that he invited me and wants me to meet more of his friends (he took me to a bonfire two weeks ago). He’s also going with me next weekend to a haunted house with my friends and coworkers. And he’s has met my parents but that was more coincidental. Just happened to be basically crossing paths.

I’m not used to being introduced to people’s friends. Most of my exes tried to not introduce me or kept it limited… That should have been a huge red flag I don’t know why it wasn’t at the time. It almost bothers me more (mentally) when someone wants me to meet people. It just seems out of the norm since so many before made it seem like a bad thing. When I mentioned it to C, he was like why wouldn’t I want you to be where I am and get to know my friends, it makes sense, I want him to do stuff with me and my friends too, and he wants to, it’s just that everyone before was just so against it (again, red flags).

He seems to truly be a good guy. His armory was handing out extra school supplies over the weekend and he picked up a bag for each of my kids. I need to sit down and ration that stuff out and hide the extras or it will be EVERYWHERE in my house.

Anyways I am super excited to see where this goes. I think he is absolutely amazing. We have fun and we are a lot alike… We have differences too, in good ways. Hopefully this is the start of something good.


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I’m obviously feeling extra witty today. I’ve just been my own worst enemy lately. Not really certain what’s up, but I’ve just been in this stubborn funk and want to sit here and eat carbs and Halloween candy. The problem isn’t so much that I want to eat one piece of the candy, the problem is I want to eat the whole bag of given the chance. I haven’t gained any weight which is fine, but I have clearly plateaued and probably eating close to maintenance calories which isn’t bad, but it isn’t going to achieve what I want. It also makes me grumpy and sluggish when I eat too much junk. I think some of it is I have been pushing so hard for 10 months now? And super hard for 6 months? I think my brain just hit the point of needing a break. I’m making a conscious effort to get my train back on the tracks. If I don’t buy it, I don’t eat it, so I just need to stop making excuses to buy it and my kids are going to have to suck it up too.

I’m slowly recovering from my fall last week at the gym. I tweaked my back up bad and I’ve been in a pissy mood. I’m 99% sure it’s just in the muscles and have been using a heat wrap at night and in the morning to loosen the muscles and it is greatly helping. I also scraped my knee up and today is the first day it is able to move freely without pulling at the scab. Tried to do some legs today and it just wasn’t ready… Hoping next week I will be good to go. I also need to hop back on the cardio train.

Training wise everything else has been awesome. I’m up to two good solid, controlled sets of chest presses with the 40lb dumb bells. I can get the up on my own now and get them down without bruising the crap out of my legs. My guy went with me last week and spotted me and this week something just clicked and it was second nature and no struggle.

I have a guy I am seriously seeing now. You could probably safely call him my boyfriend, he does. Total sweetheart, I really like him and he slid into my life effortlessly. He isn’t a gym rat, but he knows his way around the gym and likes to go with me when he can. He is totally cool with me showing him up. I guarantee on biceps he would beat me, but shoulders/chest/calves he has accepted that I train them harder I think. He jokes that before me he only used to train biceps. I don’t care either way, he can train however he wants, we have different goals and needs so we don’t have to train the same ways.

I had some importantish blood work done week before last which has also had me kind of stressed out. The results FINALLY came back today and it was all negative, so I can breathe easier again. I do need to schedule a general physical but I’m happy I had the blood work done. I had put it off way way too long.

June to now. My shoulders are at least 2 inches bigger around and my forearms have made some gains too