I choose to do this…


At least that is what I keep reminding myself. I don’t HAVE to do this. I choose too. I want to achieve certain goals. And to be able to do that, I have to make choices. It’s it that I can’t eat the ice cream, the fast food, the candy, I CHOOSE not to. I have the option to “cheat” or allow it, but that means I either have to make another choice to allow the treat and give up something in its place, or it’s going to take one day longer to hit my goal. My decision most days is that it’s not worth the extra cardio or sacrifices to fit in the candy bar or fast food. Yes, some days it sucks, but in the end, it will be worth it.

Decisions I make now WILL affect me 6 months from now. One day or week won’t ruin me, but that is a day or week that I could be working my tail off to create the best me possible. I would much rather get the extra weight off now, focus on maintaining and building, know what I’ve got going on and fix my weaknesses, then spend the next 6-8 months yo-yo-ing and stressing about getting the weight off in time for a competition. I have no intention of maintaining a stage weight for that long, I would just prefer to have 10-15lbs to lose over a 12 week period and not be trying to take off nearly 30lbs. I honestly don’t know that I even have 30lbs to lose, only time will tell, but yeah.

PMA…


Positive Mental Attitude…
8 months ago I was probably one of the most negative people I knew. Everything was wrong. Everything hurt. Everything sucked and so on. I was stressed, anxious, and most likely depressed. As I started slowly making changes to my diet and my physical health, I noticed my attitude started to change in a more positive direction as well. Then I noticed the more I thought positive and focused on the good that the easier the changes were becoming and were happening faster as well.

I started following more positive people on twitter and on Instagram. Started to phase out the more negative forces in my life. I started to do a lot of thinking. The people I was watching that were succeeding and achieving their goals were always positive, or at least not publicly negative.

Everyone has bad days, but it really boils down to how you handle those bad days. You can sit back and take it and let it keep shoving you down, or you can take it and learn from it and make it a positive thing.

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without saying too much…


Without Saying Too Much…

I am still leery of jinxing myself, but if nothing changes, one of my besties will be in town soon, and though they are only in town for a few hours we are hitting the gym.  So excited to hit the gym with them.  They know their stuff and are currently training for their first bodybuilding comp.  So cross your fingers nothing crazy happens and they make it here.

 

I need to go shopping.  My sexy tight butt hugging jeans are beyond loose.

meanderings…


Meanderings…

Ok so here is what I am thinking for the next month. 3 meals. 2 snacks/day 30g protein/meal 15g protein/snack. I’m raising my carbs from 30 on a low day to 60. Which gives me 15g carbs/meal and 7.5g/snack. Raising my calories from 1300 to 1600. Which gives me 450/meal and 125/snack…. I think my brain is now smoking… Waaaay too much math.  I still need to sit down and figure out my fats.  I think that’s where I mess up is I don’t get enough fat. I tend to eat a lot of lean meats and cheeses.  Anyone know a good site or app to plug that into to figure out?